Hello internet :)
You probably won't believe it but wooo i'm actually blogging at my college library. it's the most best place i've ever been (besides my house lol). the quietness of the place, the beautifully organized books, the view of the outside and the fact that everyone is busy doing their own things and I don't get as self-conscious.
so how's college life, ya say?
tbh i think the real college life (for me) starts during degree. i mean actually, it does start at foundation but my foundation is a tad bit different than the others. as much as it has its benefits like graduating within nine months while others need to wait for a year, it has its bad parts as well. actually i think there'd be no bad parts if the students were lesser.
the things that i don't really get to experience;
1. actually making friends
the fact that i have no friends who go along the same programme i do (except my old elementary school friends and the one who took a different intake). it's hard enough to make friends. don't get me wrong. i can introduce myself and let the conversation flow (except when people don't even try to at least respond to me the same way like wtf girl). it's the schedule that's making it difficult. you know how in one class you meet with the same faces everyday and through long bonding you'll create this lasting friendship. well not for me! my classes are kind of like high school classes they do in the movies, where one has to run along in the hallway to their specified class (mine doesn't involve a hallway btw it involves THE WHOLE CAMPUS). i meet different people in different classes every day. and my forgetfulness just adds the damage to that. but it is pretty cool how i can finally say stuff like: "oh Jared? he's in my biology class. we sit together sometimesss". not to say i didn't make any friends at all, my friends are constant now. it's always me, esther, ashleigh and esther (yes i have two friends of the same name, no i did not type wrongly). and making new friends are pretty hard since we forget each other right away after class ends.
2. actually even talking to a guy fml.
i've been hearing stories about how other people been having orientation and meeting new people and they actually got like some sort of chemistry going on. even on a senior. i've never really had a close relationship with a senior before because we just have different things to talk about. and the chances of meeting them are really small. like what kind of senior would come at you and be like: "hey what's your name? let's be friends. i'll treat ya to lunch". that's the life i think i'll never reach. and plus the guys in my college are super duper shy.
i get the feeling that i'm reverting back to my old self again. and my friend is also reverting back to herself (the good kind of reverting, mine's bad). i just knew it, pretty people will always have life smoother and it's a fact. and yet people don't even try to admit it. well it's okay. if i really get a boyfriend then that means he really does like me for me. they say college is a place where "love blossoms", maybe due to my schedule and awkwardness, love will not bloom for me this year XD. but it's okay since sooner or later we're gonna split into our separate courses anyway.or maybe life is just treating me weirdly.
so in conclusion, the only best friend who makes me feel the most comfortable for being who i am and respects my quiet time and doesn't judge on my interests, is the library. i think i've grown a strong connection to this place. i've even introduced it to my friends hahaha. i'll miss it a lot when i leave. thank you library for always being there for me twenty-four seven.
// what i'm happy about is that i haven't met anyone mean, douchey, slutty or an absolute asshole. everyone is so nice and i've finally met one of the bananas. and boy, are there these many chinese or what?
// i'm actually really flattered that i don't look like a typical chinese. i look banana criticized by samantha xD. because really most of the typical chinese are soooo basic. i want more interesting people! people like my english lecturer, miss michelle who's super cool, awkward and funny. she's probably one of my school idols. teaching your favourite subject in a fun way is a nice thought to think to.
// watching funny videos in the library is a pretty hard thing to do.
You probably won't believe it but wooo i'm actually blogging at my college library. it's the most best place i've ever been (besides my house lol). the quietness of the place, the beautifully organized books, the view of the outside and the fact that everyone is busy doing their own things and I don't get as self-conscious.
so how's college life, ya say?
tbh i think the real college life (for me) starts during degree. i mean actually, it does start at foundation but my foundation is a tad bit different than the others. as much as it has its benefits like graduating within nine months while others need to wait for a year, it has its bad parts as well. actually i think there'd be no bad parts if the students were lesser.
the things that i don't really get to experience;
1. actually making friends
the fact that i have no friends who go along the same programme i do (except my old elementary school friends and the one who took a different intake). it's hard enough to make friends. don't get me wrong. i can introduce myself and let the conversation flow (except when people don't even try to at least respond to me the same way like wtf girl). it's the schedule that's making it difficult. you know how in one class you meet with the same faces everyday and through long bonding you'll create this lasting friendship. well not for me! my classes are kind of like high school classes they do in the movies, where one has to run along in the hallway to their specified class (mine doesn't involve a hallway btw it involves THE WHOLE CAMPUS). i meet different people in different classes every day. and my forgetfulness just adds the damage to that. but it is pretty cool how i can finally say stuff like: "oh Jared? he's in my biology class. we sit together sometimesss". not to say i didn't make any friends at all, my friends are constant now. it's always me, esther, ashleigh and esther (yes i have two friends of the same name, no i did not type wrongly). and making new friends are pretty hard since we forget each other right away after class ends.
2. actually even talking to a guy fml.
i've been hearing stories about how other people been having orientation and meeting new people and they actually got like some sort of chemistry going on. even on a senior. i've never really had a close relationship with a senior before because we just have different things to talk about. and the chances of meeting them are really small. like what kind of senior would come at you and be like: "hey what's your name? let's be friends. i'll treat ya to lunch". that's the life i think i'll never reach. and plus the guys in my college are super duper shy.
i get the feeling that i'm reverting back to my old self again. and my friend is also reverting back to herself (the good kind of reverting, mine's bad). i just knew it, pretty people will always have life smoother and it's a fact. and yet people don't even try to admit it. well it's okay. if i really get a boyfriend then that means he really does like me for me. they say college is a place where "love blossoms", maybe due to my schedule and awkwardness, love will not bloom for me this year XD. but it's okay since sooner or later we're gonna split into our separate courses anyway.
so in conclusion, the only best friend who makes me feel the most comfortable for being who i am and respects my quiet time and doesn't judge on my interests, is the library. i think i've grown a strong connection to this place. i've even introduced it to my friends hahaha. i'll miss it a lot when i leave. thank you library for always being there for me twenty-four seven.
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| here's me taking a selfie to represent my love to the library. |
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| here's me immediately hiding it so people don't think i'm weird. |
// what i'm happy about is that i haven't met anyone mean, douchey, slutty or an absolute asshole. everyone is so nice and i've finally met one of the bananas. and boy, are there these many chinese or what?
// i'm actually really flattered that i don't look like a typical chinese. i look banana criticized by samantha xD. because really most of the typical chinese are soooo basic. i want more interesting people! people like my english lecturer, miss michelle who's super cool, awkward and funny. she's probably one of my school idols. teaching your favourite subject in a fun way is a nice thought to think to.
// watching funny videos in the library is a pretty hard thing to do.
