after today, i will be entering my first step into adulthood, college. finally, after a long thought, i have decided on what i want to do, something that i hope i won't regret in the future. the pathway is perfectly planned, i just hope nothing changes in the next few years.

no. actually my first step to adulthood was getting my own atm card. woo. college is a brand new environment. people can be meaner and this time, there is no one else to take care of that. because you're an adult and you are responsible of your own actions. man, holding lots of responsibilities is not my thing. people are excited to do what they want in the future. part of me actually still wants to remain as a kid. i just want to go to school and meet my friends and then we can hang out at each other's houses because we can't afford to go outside.

i wonder how people could decide on what they want to do so easily. have they thought about the consequences? have they thought about their pathway or their plan for their future? and what about if things don't work out? they're supposed to have a plan B. or is it just me who's thinking so much? i can be quite the perfectionist planner so i really hope nothing goes wrong. other people had like two weeks to prepare for this huge step while i got in later and i only have two days to get all this in my head. i swear to god, i'm such a procrastinator in every single thing i do. and somehow i always manage to find a way to not mess it up. amazing is it not? maybe god is nice to me after all haha.

i sure do hope all my friends are happy with what they're doing and that they're going to have a smooth pathway through life. everything in life will be tough which really sucks, but there's no easy road to choose from anyway. good luck to all my friends from high school and elementary school xx.

cheers to adulthood.

// i can't believe i met the same lecturer twice in a row. is this fate or..?

// i kinda had a little crush on the cute guy at monash today <3

// i'm a realist but i have a bit of an idealist to me as well. but the realist is stronger.