ks, jn, ht, yd, zx, jaen.

hello internet :))
long time no blog! i know. it's been a hectic semester for me. becaaaaaause.. i finally started university! i feel so old. i never imagined myself to use the word 'university' at all because it's such a big word. but turns out i'm a big university girl now, time sure flies. so much has happened in just one month of uni (i shit you not, one month). and the rest of the year turned to be very eventful, which i honestly don't regret.

my first week in uni was total shit, this is why:
1. i almost got sent away on my first day of uni
2. i'm living alone outside on my own for the first time
3. i had a mishap with the MPU modules

but the orientation helped me a lot in terms of making new friends and expanding my social network (socially awkward me talking about expanding my social circle?). i have decided that after foundation i would try to make a new image for myself. a very helpful life advice i got from a friend and has now became my life motto is "don't give a f*ck". and that is exactly what i did. i wanted to stop playing pretend and just be myself in front of other people. surprisingly i was able to do so and i managed to become the everyone's happy vitamin.

my first friends in uni are zx and jaen. i met them after i dealt with the messy condition i was in and joined back the orientation. i was alone by my own and left my bags at the table when i went to use to rest room. after i came back, i was greeted by someone place taking up my space (like wtf yo i chop dy). but since i had no friends i might as well take this opportunity to make some. jaen greeted me back warmly and soon later zx joined us too. and that's how i met my first friends in uni! a misfortune turned into a treasure <3

and then came the orientation games. i really dreaded this tbh because it really sucks how i just met new friends but they can't be in my orientation because we'll be distributed via lots. i guess i can understand that since they want everyone to socialize and meet new people. i ended up in group 4. the number 4 has honestly been a cursed number for me ever since i started uni. 4 actually means die in chinese, and the fact that number 4 was also the passing rate of the extra english test i had to do but most importantly, the number that f*cked up my choosing for my MPU elective. anyways, i was the second person to enter group 4 and that's where i met ht. he was chosen as the group leader and i was the group's assistant leader. we actually did pretty bad during the games HAHAHA but at least we had fun.

with meeting ht, i got to meet yd and ks along with attending my first university parTAYYYY. ht invited me and my two friends to a party in the hostel hosted by our seniors. so you would think there would be: alcohol, loud music, getting drunk and making out. you're wrong. it was a "family-friendly" party but i did get to meet a lot of people that turned out to be my course mates and helpful seniors too. and i had fun.

after the party, me, zx, jaen, ht, yd and ks decided to eat together for lunch and that was how the MPU gang was formed dundundunnnnn. the first few nights with them were fucking amazing. we'd eat dinner together and have late night talks till 3AM, getting to know more about each other by telling stories about ourselves. my senior would always walk by after extracurricular activities and tell us kids to go to sleep earlier because we'd have 8AM class the next day. i thought: "this is the family i'm going to live with for the rest of my university life and i can say i'm so blessed".

it's been over a semester and sadly, a lot of things have changed. the MPU gang is no more sad to say, we all kinda went our separate ways due to some issues. turns out when you get to know more about someone and the more comfortable you get to being yourself, there are people who aren't as compatible as you think. sad but true. the guy who i met during orientation became my first-ever boyfriend. and life is so far so good. there's been a lot of ups and downs too. but i'm trying to make my ups more than my downs this 2018. wish me luck! and congratz if you read this far, i appreciate that c: