"That's why I've decided to give this blog a go - so that I have somewhere I can say exactly what I want, when I want and how I want - to someone. And not have to worry that what I say won't sound cool or will lose me friends."

"And maybe one day, when we all realize that we all feel the same, we can all stop pretending to be something we're not."

"I loved having a little hideaway from the world."

"I know that he is way out of my league in the Stupid School Leagues of Attractiveness and General Greatness."

"I'm just a walking accident."

"But then I wondered if sometimes our friendships are a bit like clothes and when they start feeling uncomfortable it's not because we've done anything wrong. It just means that we've outgrown them."

"Instead, I'm just going to lie here and hope that eventually I will become so hot and flustered that I actually melt and never have to face anyone ever again."

"It turns out that chiselled cheekbones and twinkly, dimply smiles are an even better distraction than superhero alter egos and breathing techniques."

"There's something about the darkness that makes me feel safe to say exactly what I'm thinking rather than try to censor myself for the sake of being cool."

"even though I sometimes feel as if I'm the only person who struggles with this thing called 'life', I'm actually not."

"you have to picture your fear as an actual shape and give it a colour. And then just think to yourself that it's OK to feel anxious and just allow it to be and it will start to fade away."

"Because when you find someone who really likes you for you, and you really like them for them, you have to do all you can to not to lose them."

"it's because I'm an International Embarrassment Waiting to Happen, cursed by the God of Awkward Moments."

"Like, I could imagine that somewhere in the seven billion people on the planet there may be a boy who's just right for me, but knowing my luck he'd be living in the middle of the Amazon rainforest or a desert in Ethiopia and our paths would never cross."

"Whenever something horrible happens to you, time goes by so slowly that every second feels like an hour, but whenever something really amazing happens to you, time goes by so fast you blink and an entire week has gone."

"the twist is that I've discovered that I'm not embarrassing and ugly after all."

"There's enough sadness in the world already. You don't need to add to it."

Review:
- this book must be the most annoying because i've brought it everywhere with me. to kuantan, hong kong and even kedah, trying to finish it. and i just found out all my books can only be finished at my kampung because there's no internet to distract me from reading.

- i've heard bad reviews about this book but tbh i thoroughly enjoyed it. i think people just hate on it because a youtuber wrote it and she had ghostwriters helping her. or maybe it's just the way how the main character connects to me? all the emotions she felt in the storyline, i felt it. happiness, sadness, hatred, anger and worry. it's a connection guys.

- my favourite character is the main, Penny. she is literally me! she loves photography, blogging and is a awkward, embarrassing klutz. although she can be too basic for me, we're similar in a way. as the first quote i wrote, it's the same goal i'm doing with this blog. i'm just jealous she has a gay best friend and i don't. and the amount of text kisses 'xxxxxxxx' of hers are pretty overwhelming.

- i'm 100% sure the other character named Noah was based on alfie entirely. chocolate eyes and a dimply smile? Noah is fetus alfie. alfie just missed out on the rock god-tastic trait. would date 10 out of 10. he is the most unrealistic yet romantic guy i've ever read. but wow if a guy like this really exists, i'm rushing for him. i do want to thank dear Noah for introducing me a new way on how to calm down. the one about giving your emotions a shape and a colour, allow it to be and it'll slowly fade away. it really helped.

- i love the way penny and noah first met. it's really a unique, beautiful, memorable first meeting. i would love to meet a guy in that way as well. hahaha i'm tempting you guys. i swear it's romantic af. the ending made me so angry. after all i've been through, you made me ask for more, i'm buying the next book.

// be patient for all the blogs i have ready for you guys. about hong kong, prom, outing with the squad, going down memory lane. but knowing me being the queen of procrastination, please bear with me just this time ok? thanks haha <3
// it's almost 2016 guys! i have a mixture of anxiousness and excitement inside me. mostly i'd try to put my excitement over anxiousness because i make more right choices this way.
// i may want to make my first youtube video this time round. surprise? lol no i haven't even started.
// i've been jamming to youth by troye sivan so much lately i wonder when i'll get sick of it.