you should be confident.
you need to stop being so unsure of yourself, that way you will never make a proper decision that you want and end up following what others recommend you and making you regret in the end.
but being overly confident makes you think you're always right which is a bad thing because now you're being this prick who whenever says the wrong thing and doesn't admit or say sorry to it.

you should love yourself.
stop calling yourself ugly, dumb and useless. no one is perfect. everyone has flaws and you should embrace yours as well. so what if you have your imperfections, your big forehead, your big nose, it's not just you. and somehow others can handle it well and so can you. you don't have to call yourself beautiful everyday, just be happy with yourself.
but if you love yourself too much, you value yourself more than others. you become this selfish, narcissistic asshole. all you see is you, you and you. you need to stop. stop making others feel bad about themselves. always return the favour to them. you can't take advantage of people. don't be that person who leaves when someone's in trouble just to save yourself.

you should be nice.
help others when they're in need. who knows, one day they might return the favour because of how they're so grateful to you. okay, so someone is criticizing you, that doesn't mean you should make war with them, you are wasting your time trying to prove them wrong in that way. criticizing them back is as if you're stooping to the same level where they are.
but if you're too nice, people will take advantage of you. not everyone wanting your help are "in trouble", some of them are literally just messing with you. don't be afraid of hurting other people's feelings when you know that it's unavoidable. do you have no consent for yourself? you have feelings too. you can't always have people have their way. they have to accept the fact that things don't go as smoothly as they planned.

you should be yourself.
show yourself out there. it's not worth living your life as someone else. don't be afraid of judgements. find people who like you for you and not the fake you. there's always someone who doesn't support you for what you do. people are meant to come and go. it's inevitable. and you won't regret any of it.
don't use "i'm just being myself" as an excuse to avoid your bad behaviours. i'm mean, i'm depressed, i'm short-tempered, i'm a jerk. why? because i can't help it. it's me, it's myself, and i like it that way. that's not an excuse to use for refusing to change yourself into someone better.

you should be independent.
you need to be able to stand up for yourself. people won't be there all the time for you and who's left? you. you can't keep on leaning on your friends, your family, it feels like a burden for always calling for help. and don't always expect that just because they're close to you, they'll 100% help. sometimes they're unable to help as well and you're making them feel bad when it's your problem.
but if you're overly independent, i mean, yes there are people who would admire you. but you won't be faithful to others because you're only taking care of yourself. people won't trust you in any aspect. and so the loss of trustworthy friends. because they know you're the type of person who comes and goes at any time, only seeking for people who are of good use to you. you don't value the relationships you have with others. so who would stay for someone who won't?

those are the advices that people whether take it the right way or the wrong way. these are the most annoying advices ever because whenever i use them, they'll always counterattack it with either the pros and cons from above. you're on your own, i'm leaving. sometimes i literally wish that people would be robots (even though i 100% don't but-) they should set some proper rules in the moral textbooks.

mkay bye xx.
// idk when to get serious. i'll probably regret this.
// i hope my last breath is a sigh of relief.
// maybe i won't blog as much soon. early notice.
// i appreciate every one of you who reads my blog, thank you for your love x.

"I want to matter."

"That smile could end wars and cure cancer."

"That's why I love road trips, dude. It's like doing something without actually doing anything."

"What is the point of being alive if you don't at least try to do something remarkable?"

"I don't even know how ugly and pretty get decided."

"If it walks like a cool kid and talks like a cool kid and dresses like a cool kid and has the right mix of naughtyandnastyandnice like a cool kid, it becomes a cool kid."

"They like their coffee like they like their ex-boyfriends: bitter."

"You can love someone so much. But you can never love people as much as you can miss them."

"because you're only thinking they-might-not-like-me-they-might-not-like-me, and guess what? When you act like that, no one likes you."

"How do you just stop being terrified of getting left behind and ending up by yourself forever and meaning anything to the world?"

"Do you ever wonder whether people would like you more or less if they could see inside you?"

"I feel like, like, how you matter is defined by the things that matter to you. You matter as much as the things that matter to you do."

"All this time, there were real things to care about: real, good people who care about me."

"Even if it's a dumb story, telling it changes other people just the slightest little bit, just as living the story changes me. An infinitesimal change. And that infinitesimal change ripples outward - ever smaller but everlasting. I will get forgotten, but the stories will last. And so we all matter - maybe less than a lot, but always more than none.

"you can't stop the future from coming."

Review:
- this book took me donkey years to finish. the first three chapters were so boring i almost gave up halfway. the story only got interesting when i reached chapter eight, because that's where the action, romance and drama starts.

- if you're into so smart stuff like maths, anagramming and graphs, this is the book for you. it's basically full of uninterpretable smart talk so an idiot like me found it pretty hard to understand.

- i loved how the book cover is visually pleasing.


- my favourite character was Hassan. he's this fat muslim kid, best friend of the main character and i honestly learnt a lot of new arab words in the book which were very interesting like kafir, khanzeer, and Iblis. and plus (if you're a religious muslim please back off), he is open-minded muslim which i really like especially when he said: "You think God gives a shit about the haram stuff like having a dog and drinking alcohol? I think He only gives a shit about whether you're a good person." PREACH HASSAN PREACH.

- i like how all the F-words turn into fug. why is that? it's explained in the story.

- this book was okay i guess. but one of my least favourites. i liked the moral value in the end though.

// i'm really bored and very unproductive this holiday. oops i mean every holiday.
// i wish i could go out with my chicas. to concerts, parties. sleepovers, just hang.
// honestly i love moomoo so much. love her to bits <3