Hello Internet! :)
Today's post will be dedicated to the birthday girl, Kah Mun.
(Since she did one for me, I might as well make one for her even though my arm is kinda dysfunctional. You better be happy that I'm typing this for you Mun hahahh.)

I don't know what to say.
To be honest, you really are just a friend. A special one.
You were the popular girl. With tons of friends around you. Never feeling alone.
At first I really had no intention of being friends with you cause I'm the type of person who doesn't like to mingle with people if they treat me like the same as others a.k.a just being an "acquaintance".
But for some reason, I got to be friends with you and not feel ordinary. I felt special.
but i think everyone else not just me felt the same way so i don't know anymore

We know each other in primary school. But we never talked.
Pei Wen was the one who connected us together.
It all started when we first sat on the same van to SMK Seksyen 10.
Majority of people in the van were all from the top class in primary school.
So yes, you had friends with you all the time. Once I even looked at you and your friend talking and walking happily to class while I was walking behind by myself. Alone.
The days I spent at Seksyen 10 were total crap. I even got into the same class as Yap Lai Kei. B*tch alert.
I only liked the time we were hanging out in the van on our way home and the fact that Chuan Yong was in the same class as me to diss Yap Lai Kei haha.
After that, we had nothing else.

Then comes form 2, year 2012.
And yet again you were always accompanied by a friend, Pei Wen.
While I was panicking on where to sit, you and Pei Wen obviously would be sitting together.
There were three seats. I could've sat with you two but in the end I gave up the place to Karen cause she looked intimidating at the time (HAHAHA)
Seriously though, 2012 was the best and worst year I have ever gone through in my whole entire high school life.
The start of the year was tragic. I was always alone.
Shyne-Ni and Samantha's classes were close to each other and they turned out to be best friends now. We always go for recess together. Mostly I waited for them. But then it came to a time when I was a bit late so I had to catch up. And I witnessed how they turned their back on me and went straight ahead. It was painful.
And then there was another time during chinese class, the teacher assigned our places to sit according to classes. It was two seats per row. You sat with Pei Wen obviously. I sat with Karen. Feeling awkward, Karen told me:
"Hey I'll be sitting in the back with my friends."
"Okay. Bye." - j
It was okay until I felt pure loneliness in my heart and I swear I was so lonely that no one could even help me cheer up. It was horrible.
From that moment on, I wanted to be braver, to be more independent.

My first impression of you was a typical chinese girl who's in the top class so I assumed you were a smartass. But then I got information about you from people saying that you were ill-mannered and rude. At first I didn't believe it. (I don't know if it was a trend or what but..) When the boys were making fun of you, you pointed the middle finger. Yes I was pretty disgusted cause I have a thing with middle fingers ugh. Plus, your friends were admiring how long your middle finger was. At that moment, I was completely shocked. Am I hanging out with a bunch of gangsters in my class?

And suddenly you, me and Karen got connected due to a certain someone (you know i know)
And the time we were playing truth or dare
And the time we saw how you and him got into a relationship.
And the time we sang our hit song 情人.
And the time we sang SNSD songs without a care.
And the time we hang out together as a cool gang, boys and girls combined.
And the time we all got molested by Amirah.
And the time we ran away from a teacher with the nickname sivik babi (like what)
And the time we went for outing
And the time we saw how you and him broke up.
And the time we had our personal girl talk in Bilik Jahitan
I still got the cloth by the way. You guys haven't belanja me makan weih.
I was so happy, I felt so belong. And then here comes a conflict.

During moral class, the chinese would always sit behind and the "English-eds" would sit infront.
I sat with the "English-eds" first. Most of the time I get left out and seeing you guys at the back having so much fun attracted me. And I didn't regret one moment of it. I didn't wanted to leave my "English-eds" but I also didn't wanted to not hang out with you guys. So I always made plans (funny right?). But then the longer the time goes, I realised I hang out at the back more often and the "English-eds" tell me that I'm "not-so-close to them anymore" or "you detached from us". They really didn't understand.

Basically I was happy hanging with you and your gang of people.

Form 3, year 2013.
We separated. After your breakup, it was awkward for me and Karen.
We really had conflicts on whether to like or dislike you.
But in the end we all managed to stay friends. We did have an awkward period of time.
I wanted to approach you during prom but at the time you had like a shield of popularity.
I couldn't get myself to take a picture with you. Plus, you were going through so much.
And we weren't close anymore.

Form 4, year 2014.
After you got admitted to the hospital. we got closer due to me and Karen's visit.
It was really fun. But I know it wasn't just us. Yinfun was involved too. So much for feeling special.
Confession: I was happy and sad at the fact you were mad at your friends.
Happy because I felt so special. I thought: "Do I really mean alot to her?" or "Am I something to her?"
Sad because after Jiayin told me her side of the story, pretty mean.
But I kinda understand what you meant since I'm in the same condition. Still, this was a good chance to see who your real friends are. The ones who care and the ones who didn't even give a sh*t.

Langkawi trip.
I was psyched to be sitting with you for the whole trip. It was finally the time we can talk about the old times again. But I didn't realised I made Jiayin upset about it. Sorry.
The late night gossip sessions at night. The gossip session on the bus.
I think we were so loud in the bus hahaha. I hope the others didn't hear us *chuckle*
And the drawing game we played on our way home. Hilarious.
It was as amazing as the Cameron trip last year. Let's go again next year :*

To Jiayin:
No need to be upset Jiayin. Even though me and Kah Mun are pretty close but it's not like I'll steal her away from you. She already has good friends like you, she's not going anywhere. At least you were still lucky to have another good friend Pei Wen to accompany you. I didn't even had a companion for the trip. Shyne-Ni and Samantha were taken. I was alone. It felt really good that I spent the trip hanging out with you, Kah Mun and Pei Wen. I got to know you more and how adorable and funny you were. I'm grateful. Thanks xx.

So Chan Kah Mun,
Technically saying you made a big impact in my high school life.
Even though you can sometimes be perasan, self-absorbed and mean.
You're lucky to have friends who still love you for all your imperfections.
You better be grateful to them. Including meeeee hehehe.

Have a great 16. Because my 16 was totally full of drama.
I wish I can do something for your birthday but yea in my condition right now, looks like we'll have to wait hahah.
Go and celebrate with Jiayin and Liven. Make sure you guys have fun. And pictures pleaseee.
I hope you'll have a sleepover. hehehehe.

Friends for life ☮

Langkawi

House visiting.

Signature pose.

Please don't forget me.

Mkay bye xx.
// There were parts about my story and I kinda got carried away...
// Your twitter name is Moonlight and that made me thought of the title for this post. You're the moon and I'm guessing you'll know who your stars are. Stay close to them. They really love you.