question: why are you being so uncomfortable?

answer: you're not being yourself

question: after being "yourself", how do you feel?

answer: i wonder why everything is still the same

question: is it that "being myself" was never good enough?

answer: ...

question: didn't your personality got you the friends you wanted?

answer: yes and i'm glad that they understand me but it may be a factor why we just stop there

question: maybe you haven't found that person that can let you be you?

answer: or maybe i was too hidden for people to want to show who i was.

question: maybe you're just overthinking this?

answer: maybe i am making this difficult on myself but if it didn't

go smoothly this many times there must be a problem somewhere but where?

i'm sick and tired of always asking if i was the problem

has it always been me that's wrong

become a mystery that people would want to know.

// 2017 juniper's review //

question: did you finally found the answer you needed?

answer: yes.

// it feels like a waste to delete something i used to felt on my blog which is the exact place where i'm able to throw my emotions around without having to care about what other people felt, it seems appropriate.

// turns out the past me couldn't grasp the basics of social communication and i'm glad i finally knew how to and accept myself for the type of person i am. sorry to everyone i grew cold to and having this realization late.

// it looks like i still had a "phase" at the age of eighteen.