hello internet.
i can't believe how hard it is to say this but, i have officially completed my foundation year in this duration of nine months. it wasn't any regular nine months that i expected it to be. i have grown matured, met new people, met with new personalities and no progress with time management whatsoever haha.

college versus high school, i could say there was an obvious difference between the two. idk if it's because i was unlucky as i never got to meet the type of people i'm supposed to meet in high school since everyone in high school were dramatic and crazy about popularity which is a total different case from college. but i guess that makes it a good thing as it gave me a whole new experience.

About the School Environment :
the one thing that i like about sunway is that you can meet a variety of people (literally).
there are your snobby rich kids, nice and cool rich kids, typical chinese nerds, pretty nerds, ms. and mr. perfects, fashion-trend gurus, people from out of the state or the country and people who just don't give an absolute f. it's super duper comforting that i'm able to wear anything freely without feeling too self-conscious about myself. it really is a place that enables you to show your true self because somewhere out there, there will be somewhere you can belong to.

About the Encounter :
before this i thought, it was just nine months. it's just a short period. people come and people go. nothing is going to change. it's not like i'm going to develop deep relationships with anyone, right? or so i thought. then i met one of the loveliest bunch of people and i'm so grateful for these encounters that faith brought us together. i'm so so happy that i didn't meet any bad crowds of backstabbing or cheats that may give me bad memories of my foundation year and instead, i met you guys *heart emoji*.

i know i haven't been the greatest friend ever (i will forever and always think of that to absolutely anyone). but i'm thankful for people like you who accept shitty people like me so thank you <3. p.s i'm currently in college typing each sentence with people walking by and it's embarrassing hahaha. continuing on, i guess you could say i never exactly had any major impacts this year so i can't really say i've grown. no love encounters, no friendship drama and life's just been smooth sailing for me. which is good but, i wish something exciting could happen some time.

About Myself :
in terms of my personality, i'm still the same old wreck suffering from social anxiety and yes, i still find it hard to talk to strangers but it's definitely gotten better than before. and i think i'm working on my texting game (i'm all for texting but i still don't understand how people can text literally every single day? i find it quite tiring actually unless i like you or you're just amusing af).

my introvertism is starting to grow on me as i hardly talk in class compared to before (because i like to focus on my studies ok) and i find myself recharging at more times ahaha. i mean, what you could you explain except the fact that you wake up at 5.30am every morning and reach college at 7am to have class at 8.30am. on the bright side, i never exactly disconnected with anyone and everyone was just so sweet. there are even people i was close enough to let them actually know the truth of my blog hahaha (zr or yx, are you reading this?). it's a whole new side of me exposed but idk why my gut feeling tells me otherwise.

more updates: i've recently been more braver to initiate conversations now and actually made a new close friend. i'm super proud of myself haha. still constantly killing butterflies inside.

Semester one buds. fy, jt, myr, joe, dt, sher, kw.

Semester two bros and hoes cameraman ben, charles, joe, kw.

The people who i ended mufy with <3

// how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
// the end party: midnight adventures to kajang and extreme park fun. thank you kenwen for letting us stay over at your house and showing us your childhood memories and spots.
// what's to come: sabah 2k17