it seems as time was never there for me. why do all the good things fade? things were always off when things can't make. time was always wrong for so i say. when things are fine why does it seem. that things would never go the way. i wished they would so magically.

when i'm out the picture, out the door. a pretty scenery starts to form. this bitter feeling. good for others but not for me. things aren't as complicated as they should be. but why oh why must this occur to me. the bittersweet inside me, yet happy yet angered. is this a conspiracy and should this matter?

this looks intentional but it's not performed by others. time and space have something with each other. feels like being replaced when you don't matter. when actually things are just fine. you're just shattered.

will the light shine on me i never thought it would. will i get happiness without trying to. why is life so bumpy on the route to ecstasy. why are people so wrong to me. i wish for a change of thought. change of people, change of fond.

i rather be forgotten than to be replaced.

// honestly even i had no idea what i typed but as long as it means something to me then it matters. i seriously just scramble words while humming beyonce's "pray you catch me".
// why is timing never in my favour most of the time? should I blame myself or the other for being too late?
// i'm really desperate to listen to beyonce's new album, lemonade. i'm not a fan for the angry songs. but "pray you catch me" and "hold up" totally got my attention. i hate how she can't put it on youtube but on tidal. i freaking hate tidal omg. but beyonce will always be queen.
// i can't pass up the gif where beyonce looks so blessed after expressing and relieving her feelings so here it is: