smile.: January 2015

Hello internet! :)
Happy new year, happy 2015, happy happy happy. I bet all of you had fun counting down with your friends on new year's eve ha ha ha ~~good for you.~~ Oh wells.. seeing that i don't have a lot of close friends i can hang out with i guess it's okay to stay at home with family and there's always next year anyways.

2014 was pretty crazy for me. It kinda includes in the list of my worst years in my life (sorry 2014 you sucked). There were dramas, jerks and depression going through me and since it's the new year, to all the people who gave me the worst memories last year, i hate you but i won't always will. i won't wish you luck or bad luck in the future but i just want to say that i didn't like what you did to me so don't do it to anyone else you meet you jerks. i know i'm supposed to be the bigger person here, but it's still not the time for me. and to those who gave me colorful days in 2014, even though not much i still appreciate it. especially one of you knows that (you know who you are small worth). may 2015 not be crap and hopefully lead me meeting new people and making me a better person in general.

Today's just going to be a post about me blogging about how i want to change into another person in 2015 (i doubt it'll work) but i am serious. I get this gut feeling that i'll change into someone that i don't think anyone will be comfortable with but you'll get used to it sooner or later. So here comes my 2015 resolutions. I actually planned this beforehand and wrote a long list. Some of you may say "geez is THAT your resolutions? BORING." or "lol she's at her senior year and she's doing that ha ha lifeless loserr". But i decided to not give a damn so-

2015 resolutions;

1. The Change

Changing mentally, as if i'm starting fresh anew. Let the new energy of 2015 expel the bad energy i've gotten from 2014 (this sounds so feng shui do excuse me haha). I was a really crappy person who hurt my friends last year and i don't want to repeat it again. If i ever do something stupid again, don't hesitate to slap me in the face, wake me up. And this time, don't just help me. Also let me help you. I realized having the rage of seeing someone who isn't worth the pain and are hiding them and keeping it to themselves. Let's help each other out. Even if in some situations that we won't understand each other, at least we were together. I will not be selfish. I will not seek for revenge because a smile could already drive them insane. Ignore the haters unless they're honestly trying to make me a better person and tells me my mistakes. And sometimes when someone does something wrong, speak. Do not ever speak about someone behind their back. Don't do a deed to get appreciated, do it from the heart. My quote for this year will be; Impress the empress take a shot now - lorde. Be happy with who i am and impressing is just a waste of time.

2. The Bookworm

SPM is here (98' liners are so screwed). I was lucky I could slack off last year and that i wasn't involved in the new system that form 3's are currently in. I don't think i can survive doing every single homework the teacher gives me. (i know i say this every year but) I AM GOING TO FREAKING STUDY. FOR REALZZ THIS TIME. I planned my own schedule for the new year that i will go to the library or maybe just stay in class and study during breaks for two days in a week. Of course staying in the class with crazy friends won't work but luckily i got someone else who thinks the same way as i do, so maybe we could pull it off. or maybe we would talk non-stop like what we did for the last year (lol). And i guess you could say i will hardly be on the internet next year (idk things like these never go to plan).

Tip of motivation; if you get good grades, you could avoid getting selected to join the army. Thank me.

3. The School's Puppet

Dear school, teachers and homework, even though you are what students hate the most, for this year, you got me all wrapped up in your nasty little fingers and i will accept them. i will go to your afterschool activites and earn points written in my card. i will start doing prs work (maybe not go to those dumb lectures that'll bore me to death and waste my time). and it's all in the sake of having a future. i will do this not for you skewllll, doing this for the teachers that actually educated me and for myself. please and thank you.

4. The Beauty in a Beast

This is probably the hardest one i will ever achieve this year. Exercising UGHHHHHHHHH. It's not a weigh issue here, i'm actually pretty glad with my weight. I'm doing exercises for my health and appearance. Don't you see your flabby arms when you wear that tank top of yours? Do you feel insecure when you wear shorts that reveal your fat thighs? i'm satisfied with how i look like winnie the pooh, just a wee bit tubby but i want to improve my posture and y'know perk up my butt or something. Everybody likes a nice summer bod. I will also learn make-up because i'm going into adulthood and i have quite an interest in it. i, first though, need to overcome the inconvenience of mascara and eyeliner. it's so liquid-ish. And also, i will take care of my skin and my sadly really bad eyesight.

5. The Opportunist

I am actually going to try to make new friends. Of course not just anyone i see, being a creepo and walk straight up in their ear and say 'hi' ( ͡° ʖ ͡°). I'll try to meet people irl or on the internet through interests like music or a particular youtuber. For example, dayana was practically my soulmate. She was my dan to my phan (epic quote from her btw this is for you), but sadly I should've interact with her more before she left. I miss you dayana and if it happens, let's hang out at comic fiesta this year! Anyway back to the point, internet people can be super nice. I know that 'the internet is not safe' but c'mon, i see a teenage girl who lives in the UK and for her whole life she fangirls about dan howell, she seems harmless to me. I know how to differentiate rapers and teenage kids on the internet mooooom.

6. The Spirit

My inner spirit tells me i'm an artist. i crave art. i draw art. i am a piece of art. problem is i'm not, how do i say this, not really talented in this profession. i know i can draw but compared to other people who can draw really good portraits, manga, and animations. I'm not good. The only thing that i'm good at is drawing a replica of what i see. For example, show me a picture of pikachu and i will draw you a pikachu, maybe 70% accurate. And my spirit for fashion, buying clothes and lookin' good is always what i wanted - but hard to achieve. Honestly from my perspective, people won't take your fashion seriously unless you have durrr face. Like say someone not so good-looking has an amazing body and fashion taste, they'd covered her face and take a picture of the outfit instead. It's gonna be tough.

7. The Dream

Number uno, i want to be a photographer. I was always told i take great photos (more like when people compliment the photo i say 'i'm such a great photographer i should do this as a profession' what a narcist lol). Number dos, my life long dream is to make youtube videos. Seeing as i'm youtube-cray, who wouldn't wanna make youtube videos? They're so fun! People say i'm fun to talk to and i tend to get chatty by myself like what i'm doing right now blogging. Thinking that you're talking to the audience when you're actually talking to yourself in front of an mechanical object (thumbs up to chris kendall for making me realize that). And all i needed is a camera which i can never afford. So i'm thinking, make my parents proud, tell them i didn't recklessly waste money when they were around and convince them to buy me a camera. From then on, i will be a youtuber. Maybe get noticed by youtube, earn a living by making youtube videos and meet dan and phil. Life goal accomplished. I know it's not that easy, but with determination i can do ittt.

That's the end of my blog post. Hope it was entertaining and more than *snore snore sleep sleep yawn*. Once again have a wonderful 2015. May you be blessed with happiness. mkay bye xx.

// google plus is so annoying i swear. it was so hard to switch emails zzz.

// just to let you guys know, i switched emails for this blog. so if anyone has a private blog, make sure to invite me.

// the guys i fancy always turn out to have dimples.
// i'm in love with these glasses.

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