Hello Internet.
I was thinking again and I felt that I had to blog this for myself.

Me & Karen were talking about friends today and we tumbled upon the topic "guy friends".
I was talking about how weird it is that I'm a girl living with only brothers yet they most of the friends I make are girls since Karen would understand cause she's on the same boat. She was surprised as well.
She can talk to boys so it's okay. But in my case, I think I can never be tight with a guy friend.

I think reasons are:
a) They're more attracted and like my other friends more.
b) I haven't met the one I can click with?
c) I just suck at socializing.

"I have no problem talking to guys but they'll just treat me as a guy too." - k.k.
"At least you can still make friends." - juni.
"But they see you as a girl, treat you like a girl." - k.k
"Okay listen here. I do have guy friends right now, they treat me as a lady. But they'll just say the normal things they say when they see other girls like 'hey that girl's pretty' or 'hey how are you?', nothing else. At least you have some sort of connection." - juni.

Up until now, I have to be honest. I have never ever had an actual guy friend before.
Even if I did, they were only 'friends' not 'best buds'.
I never send texts to a guy before, I never did skinship with a guy before, I don't think I ever made a guy's heart flutter before. I'm very inexperienced.
Most people say if you have a guy best friend, you'll eventually fall for him.
Umm.. there's a thing called the 'friendzone'. Especially after seeing Samantha's admirers.
The curiosity of having a guy friend got me to the extent that I totally wouldn't mind having a gay friend like Tyler Oakley or Troye Sivan. They're cool.

Surely girls will say "c'mon you can just survive with girl friends, you don't need guys!"
Yes that's true but I'm just really curious how it's like. Like the time I was curious how's it like to have a boyfriend. Maybe after hearing Samantha's friendship with Valiant, I was jealous.. *awkward*

Well I hope one day I'll meet a cool dude who I can tell secrets and share stories with.
Until next time. Mkay bye xx.